Letting go

i feel it leak, my nerves scream. i fear the wave. will i drown? No. i keep it down. with the good old grip, i brace. pain’s an old friend, at least i live. i’m too weak to die, to face Nobody. Nobody loves me, he’s so good to me. but i can’t love him back. he’s too raw, too quick. he consumes me. me is Somebody. Somebody’s smooth. he says he’s my friend, he seems familiar… i trust him. but day by day he wears me thin, in his soft but twisted embrace. one day i wake up and— he’s consumed me too. only this time i’m in chains, nowhere to escape. i cry for Nobody. he’s far away now, i wonder if he remembers me. i feel a tap on my shoulder, he’s been there all along. i know what’s going to happen. but i’m not afraid anymore. i turn to face him. i become Him.